What Will God Do With A Broken Finger

I am sure it is something good.

September 29

I know God is up to something with this broken finger of mine. He's always up to something. The events of our life are never random or happen chance. I woke up this morning and my hand was sore, so I massaged the part of my hand that I overused trying to protect the broken finger. I went up to my bonus room to work on some cushions that I am sewing for a friend. She is moving and I want to get them done before she leaves. I finished cutting out all the fabric and even though I'm cutting with my right hand, the little bit I did with my left hand made my finger ache. This constant aching is making me really tired. Normally I would have been able to get everything cut and a fair amount of the sewing done. I barely got the cutting done. So now I am tired, discouraged, and a little sad. I'm finding it harder and harder to do things. It's been 3 days since I injured my finger, and I think it feels worse now. I look around at all the work I need to do and it frightens me. I have drywall work that needs to be done. I have painting I need to do. We are in the middle of this kitchen renovation, and now I'm disabled. Honestly all I want to do is cry. Having this almost constant ache is starting to wear on me.

I am taking an advanced discipleship training program. The lesson this week was on discovering our concept of God. The homework was to take a little test. They said to take this test on your worst day. We all know the right answers to these kinds of questions about God, but on your worst day you feel differently. This questionnaire actually shows you the truth of what you're living out of. It's the difference between head knowledge and heart knowledge. So today seemed like a good day to take the test. I'm feeling pretty crappy. My hand hurts, I'm tired, frustrated and sad. As I answered the questions for the most part I liked my answers. I really love God and I know He is amazing. The problem came back again to me. I really not sure how I measure up. Then I feel bad because I know that breaks His heart. I know this because if one of my children didn't truly understand how much I love them, it would break my heart. So I am guessing this little broken finger of mine is somehow connected to what God is doing in all of this. I am thankful that God revealed to me some of the distortions I have been living out of.

A.W. Tozer says, "Nothing twists and deforms the soul more than an unworthy concept of God. Our real idea of God may lie buried under the rubbish of conventional religious notions and may require an intelligent and vigorous search before it is finally unearthed and exposed for what it is."

Until this rubbish is exposed and deposed we struggle. In simple terms, we replace the Truth for the lie. I long for the abundant life Jesus came to give us.

And Lord, thank you for talk to text.