Sadness to Joy

The more of my life I surrender to God, the more life I have.

May 22

I believe each of us has a leading emotion. When all is well in our world we may not even notice. But, when we are tired, hungry, or anxious about something when we are sick when something in our life is out of whack this leading emotion surfaces. To some, it may be anger or bitterness. To some, it may be fear or shame. It can feel like a knee jerk reaction. When all is well we can manage it and redirect our emotions. Today as I rested in God’s presence He revealed that mine is grief and sadness. I have had a lot of loss in the last few years. Too much to mention here. He told me to start writing some things down in order to process, and let go. I need to let Him into the sadness and let Him heal it. I need to let myself grieve some of the things I haven’t fully grieved. The things I haven’t fully acknowledged. I don’t mean to say I am going to wallow in grief. I certainly don’t want to do that, but as I take each loss to my Father He can ease the pain. He can exchange my sorrow for gladness. Pushing down the grief, pretending I’ve got this, does not promote healing. It is in the act of acknowledging it to myself and to God, that God can heal the sadness. The more time I spend in the quiet presence of God the less the sadness and grief have power in my life. The more of my life I surrender to God, the more life I have. He is turning my sadness into Joy. I have more of Him and I have more life.