Just a Fractured Finger

I know God is in the midst of this. I know He is working things out for good. I just can't see it all yet.

October 2

When I went to bed last night my finger really hurt. It was like a million pins and needles. I had to get up at 1:30 in the morning to take some ibuprofen so I could hopefully sleep. Driving in the car magnifies that feeling. It makes me want to crawl out of my skin and lasts for quite some time after I’m out of the car. The tip of my finger feels a little numb. Because of the tingling and the numbness, on top of the pain, I was starting to think maybe I had done nerve damage. So, first thing this morning I called the doctor and got an appointment. At first, I was told I would have to see the nurse practitioner. And then she re-looked at the schedule and booked me to see my doctor. I was really glad I didn't have to go to urgent care, and I got actually to see my doctor. She checked my finger out, took some x-rays, and saw that I had two small fractures. She told me the reason the nerves in my finger were being affected was because of the swelling. Icing my finger would help to bring the swelling down along with ibuprofen. It will take a couple of weeks in a splint and icing my finger before it will start to get better. I am so relieved that I don't have nerve damage. I am so relieved it will heal on its own. Thank you, Jesus, that all I have is a small fracture.

Since we are in the middle of a huge house project, I am struggling with the fact I can’t jump in and get it done. My sweet husband has taken over most of the jobs that I was supposed to do. Things like taping and mudding the walls. He has been really gracious and kind. I just feel really bad. We took on this project of redoing our kitchen, actually kitchens, knowing we would do a lot of the work ourselves. And now with the doctor telling me, I can't use my left hand at all, it has left most of the work to him. I know God is in the midst of all of this. I know He has a plan. But, standing on the sidelines is not in my nature. I want to find a solution. God keeps telling me to trust Him. He has a plan.