The Voice in My head was Silenced

October 29

Today has been another really tough day. By 11:00, I was so tired I could barely concentrate. By noon I was in bed. I slept for about an hour and a half and still woke up exhausted. Whatever is going on with my hand is draining all of my energy. So I'm in pain, I'm tired, and I'm starting to get scared. This mixture is not a good combination. Let me repeat; this is not good. I am having a hard time holding it together.

But, one of my sweet friends lost her mother-in-law suddenly last night, and I needed to reach out to her today. She was a very dear woman in her life. So I knew I needed to call her. I wanted to see how she was doing and how her husband was doing. I wanted to give her my love and support. So I called to check on her; I did not want to talk about me. I'm trying to stuff down all the emotions that I'm feeling. I'm trying to push past the tiredness, the weariness, and the fear. But after a few minutes, she heard something in my voice, and she gently said, "Are you okay?"

The tears just came, and I started to cry. All the fear, all the weariness, overwhelmed me. It all just tumbled out, and I confided to her everything I had been thinking. I felt kind of bad because I was calling to comfort her, and here she is comforting me. The beautiful thing is once I cried it all out, I felt better. The voice in my head was silenced. And I could rest in God again. We did get back to talking about the death of her mother-in-law and how her husband was doing. She told me some amazing stories of how God is working. I love stories like that because it reminds me that if He can do it for someone else, He can do it for me. God is always at work! He never sleeps! Nothing can take us out of the palm of His hand. I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord; they are to prosper you and not to harm you to give you a future and a hope. So, I think I'll hang on to that right now.