God Said Wait

I am to wait on His timing, and it isn't now

Sept 10

Several weeks ago I decided to have a bible study in my home on Monday afternoons. I really thought this would be a good idea. I mentioned this idea to a few friends and even talked to the director of our women's ministry. Everybody thought it was a great idea. I was praying about what this should look like and what we would study. I had a few ideas, I just wanted to hear from God before I chose. After making a few phone calls to Bible Study Fellowship, and talking to a friend, I decided what we would start off doing. Regrettably, I couldn’t seem to get everything in place to start last Monday. I tried several times to sit down and email our women’s director so she could help let people know, and I was going to send a message to people I personally know. Time just kept getting away from me. Nothing was falling into place. When I woke up on Monday morning I knew we could not start next Monday it would have to be the following. I knew that would be fine, but it has been over a week and a half and I still haven’t been able to get this email out. I am starting to feel a little uneasy. I went back to God to see if maybe we should study something else? No answer. Tuesday, I’m even a little more uneasy. I’m starting to feel like I'm not supposed to do this at all. Wednesday, I finally stopped asking what he wanted me to do. I simply surrendered not only what we would study, but if we would study at all. Did God even want me to start a bible study in my home right now? As the day went on I felt more and more like God was holding me back. He was saying just wait. I went to church and heard in the message to have the courage to say no. I asked a friend to pray I would hear God clearly. I woke up this morning and just knew, I was to wait on His timing and it wasn’t now. Honestly, I’m a little sad. I had one friend I needed to call. She was the one person who was all set to do this study with me. I felt so bad to disappoint her, but I knew I had to be obedient. When I told her I had some bad news, before I could say another word, she told me I wasn’t supposed to teach. She had heard very clearly from God on three separate occasions that this was not the time. She even wrote it down. I couldn’t believe it! I didn’t disappoint her, she confirmed to me what I had heard. When I decided to not teach, I was sad, but I had peace. It was then that God started to show me why. All the reasons had always been there. I could see it all, but I didn’t recognize it or put the pieces together. Once I submitted and was obedient, I started to understand. I was trying to rush God’s promises. I was trying to make things happen. God reminded me of David. God had anointed him to be king when he was just a lad, just a young shepherd boy. As David grew, he had many opportunities to take the throne that God had promised him. He had opportunities to kill Saul and make it happen. David chose to wait on God. God did not need David to make things happen. God put David in his rightful place when the time was right. I choose to trust God to do the same thing in my life.