A Prayer Just for Me

As I looked back over the day I was asking God where were you?

September 25

The last few days have been less than ideal. Each day I had a plan for what I was hoping to accomplish, and each day I didn’t even touch it. Remodeling the kitchen and putting the old cabinets in the basement has been great. It has been fairly smooth. There has just been a lot of decisions to make. I thought some of these things had been decided and then something happens and we need to revisit it. All this took time I hadn’t planned on. Then there were the delays, Today, It rained so my husband couldn’t get the drywall to put back in the basement kitchen. We can’t put the cabinets downstairs until that is done. The gas company is coming on Monday to hook up the gas line for the range, so we need things in place. And my son is having friends over for his birthday on Monday night. I don’t need everything done, but I do need it cleaned up. I’m starting to feel the pressure.

As I looked back over the day I was asking God where were you? I know He was with me. I felt His calming presence several times throughout the day, but nothing to really write about. So I thought I will pray a 10-minute pause. I feel a little better. Then, when that was over, I felt lead to pray my prayer of surrender. I didn’t sleep well last night with all the thoughts of the remodel running through my head. I surrendered it all to God. Even more peace. I pray the bedtime prayer and finally I feel God lead me to the Ephesians Prayer.

On May 23 I posted the Ephesians Prayer. It is a prayer that I wrote from Ephesians 1 and 3. I pray this regularly over my husband, my children, family, and friends as well as myself. As I mentioned in May, it includes so much of what I want for my family and myself, and that is why I love it so much. Things like a spirit of wisdom and revelation of who He is. That we would know the hope of His calling on our lives. That we would be strengthened in Him and we would truly know how much He loves us and so much more. I pull it up on my phone, but I sense God telling me to just pray for myself. I hesitate, because what would it hurt to include everyone else like I always do as I pray for myself. But I am to pray for just me.

As I insert the word me and I, into this favorite prayer of mine, I can really sense His love for me. I have never prayed this prayer for just myself. It is only this year that I started to include myself when I prayed for others. It felt so sweet and intimate. It felt like he was saying yes to me as I prayed each part of this prayer. It was like He pulled me out of the crowd and said this time it is just for you. I want this for you, my child. I love you.

Thank you Father for loving me.