Missing Mom

I don’t think I will ever stop missing my mom. She has been gone for six years now. She was my best friend and I think about her every day. Usually, memories of my mom bring a smile to my face, but not today.

February 24

I woke up a little sad today. I don't know why. Maybe it had to do with being tired or my to-do list that never seems to end. I'm not sure there was a specific reason. As I write this I realize it was my mother’s birthday today. She passed away 6 and a half years ago. She was my best friend and I still miss her. Now it makes sense. Even though my conscious mind did not remember, my spirit did. I felt a little weepy today as I saw some of her things up in my bonus room today. I just thought I was having an off day. I did a lot of surrendering today, trying to get back to normal. I could feel His presence, but I still felt grey, which matched the grey rainy day we were having. Grief can sneak up on you, and pull you down. So, Lord, I surrender my mom to you. I surrender her memories, my desire to still have her with me. I surrender my tears, my loss, my self-pity. I surrender understanding why I had to lose her. I surrender all. Lord, you told me as I surrender peace will come. I finally have peace. I still miss her, but I trust You with her.