From my Head to my Heart

Sometimes the hardest thing to do is let go and let God.

March 19

After my prayer of surrender, I slept much better last night. But when I woke up this morning, after My quiet time, I started to struggle. I just wanted to cry. It is so unfair. I felt like no one will listen to me. No one will answer my calls. l feel powerless and that makes me want to fight. I did my daily prayer of surrender and then I called a friend. I needed to come together in prayer with someone. My precious Andrew is going to lose so much by being forced to come home. I know that I cannot see the whole picture, only God can. I know that if God wanted Andrew to stay in Japan, he would. I know the plans He has for him. They are to prosper him and not to harm him, to give him a hope and a future. It is hard to see that with so little insight. This is where faith and trust come in. I just needed a little help with getting this from my head to my heart. Praying with Marie did that for me today. We prayed for Andrew and the officials making this decision. We prayed for my heart. We prayed for God's will to be done on earth and so much more. I was able to stay in a place of surrender and trust all day, knowing in my mind and heart that God is working on my behalf, even if I don't get the outcome I want. I want to be on the side of God, not fighting against him. Hands open, accepting whatever God will do. I even had two people reach out to me concerning Andrew's situation. No solution yet, and most likely it is too late, but I saw God's hand at work. I am still a little sad for all the loss, but I am trusting God.