A Life of Significance & Influence

When I see the ministry that God has given to powerful people, I need to avoid the comparison trap.

August 7

I wrote in my journal today, that I want to live a life of significance and influence. I am stepping into a new time in my life. I am no longer homeschooling any of my children since they have all graduated, and I am no longer homeschooling my grandchildren because my two-year commitment is completed. I was really excited to begin this new chapter and see what God had in-store and then COVID struck. All my children came home. We had quarantines, social distancing and life felt a little upside down. I have been writing every day as God asked me to and I have loved it. It took me months to get everything set up and for my posts to be live. I am still trying to figure out how to share. I know I am not reaching anyone, but I’m okay with that because the time I spend writing, and the time I spend with God, has been amazing. I am choosing to trust God’s timing and His plan. Maybe this is just for me and that's okay

The problem came in when I spent two days listening to these amazing, brilliant, speakers at the Global Leadership Summit. Their lives seem to have such significance. They were faithful and God did…

I started to think, what does that say about me. Where is my significance? Where is my influence? What is my story? I have this very deep desire to be a part of God’s story. Anxiety started to grow. My stomach felt a little tight. I feel God preparing me for something, but nothing is happening and I don’t know the direction. I don’t want to miss it.

Then Albert Tate started to speak and said he was feeling a little intimidated himself with all the great leaders that have spoken. He was putting to words what was happening in my heart. I started to laugh and relax. Then I heard God say to me, Let go and trust me.

When I see how God has blessed someone else’s faithfulness. When I see the ministry that He has given them, I need to avoid the comparison trap. I love my life and I loved homeschooling my children. I wouldn’t change any of that. I need to let go and surrender my longings. Trust God, regardless of what it looks like. My life is good.